...craptastic day returns.

So...this morning got off to an early start...because I went to bed early last night. We're talking 10:30 P.M early. On a Friday. That's so...unlike me.

I interrupt this post to mention there is a giant bee SOMEWHERE in my room. It was flying around...and then disappeared. This does not make me happy! Not one bit.

More later. I'm a bit freaked...

Today flew by. I don't know if it's because my boss was out of the office all day...or if I was just really busy...or if it's because I was running through important midterm information in my head throughout the day or what...

I think I did okay on the midterm. I hope I did, anyway. It was short answers and essay. Not too bad. I don't think.

We'll see when I get it back.

Thursday we're watching Casablanca in class. Next week we were supposed to watch Invasion of the Body Snatchers, but my class (not me) chose to watch High Noon instead. Ah well.

Just been busy. Love that. But it's frustrating too.

Friday night was Indiana Jones night. Saw the new movie in theaters. And I find it rather...( Not really spoilers...just personal feelings! )

Yesterday was the Strawberry Festival. Good times. Not too much to do there. But there was crafts...and I ended up already getting something for my mom's birthday in October. That's always a good thing. It's homemade...even better. That means none of my siblings will get the same thing.

Ate a few chocolate covered strawberries...which were heavenly. Drank a strawberry blended ice drink...which was way sweet. But good. And went to buy strawberries...and they were out. Which made me sad! But, we drove out to Hubers and bought two quarts of strawberries...which is SO good because I've been craving them for so long. And they are very ripe and yummy.

Went to Hard Rock Café for lunch yesterday. That was SO good. I always get the same thing, but it's affordable...so no complaints. :) Besides, their cheeseburgers are wonderful and their fries are definitely delicious. Then headed out to the mall just to walk around. And we did (FINALLY) get some throw pillows for the couch. They look awesome!! This makes me happy.

Came home rather late. After running all our errunds, we settled in at about 8:00 p.m. So it was a full day on the go. No complaints there. Definitely accomplished A LOT!

I have a midterm on Tuesday (GAH!) and should have studied and worked on my study cards...but I got distracted making icons. I might do more of that tonight as I finished up my cards and it's just really a matter of looking through them and learning them enough for the test. It's summer. I really don't want to be taking classes. I did so I can get done faster...I just hate it. This is MY SUMMER, DAMMIT!

So...only three more weeks of it though and I'm done. Wow. Crazy.

Got stuff done today too. I need to get into the kitchen at some point and scour it. Not that it's bad. But the floor desperately needs mopping and I really need to work on those counters.

And I need an apron. Just sayin'.

Oh...and why is it that every time I have a weekend or an extra day off, I never can sleep in. GAH!! Of course, not sleeping in helped me get done with my study cards...it's just flippin' annoying.

I had a list of things I should have accomplished today.

As it is...I accomplished none of it.

I sort of expected this.

But now I have to try to cram it in tomorrow. And that isn't looking likely either.

*sigh*

This has been a crazy week. As some of you may know, I've been quite stressed out with work (I know...shocker), and school (double shocker), and with real life. Well, this week has been just as insane. It's meant a lot of work, a lot of planning...and there was even a bit of saddness with an unexpected passing.

But...I'm in the midst of baking brownies. Almost got them done. Three batches. I rock. And they're all for Conglomeration tomorrow. WOOT WOOT! I made a Turtle flavored one...a triple chocolate one...and a peanut butter and chocolate one. All frosted to perfection and goodness.

And now...off to get ladystarblade some Vitamin Water.

You know...I woke up this morning feeling rather good. I mean, I never like hauling my ass out of bed at 5:30 a.m. but when there are things to do...it's gotta be done. I really don't feel like I had much of a Spring Break. I was on the go the entire time. No rest. No days off. Just working, doing homework (yes, even on Spring Break!), and getting things situated around the house.

I did get a 750 GB external hard drive from Mom2 on Sunday because it seems my computer is on the brink of another hard drive failure and this way I can back it up. Now I just need the time to crack it open and get using it. I ♥ it so much though!

ladystarblade and I bought a new shelving unit for our dining room at Best Buy the other day. It's fabulous. It meant we could get rid of three rather bulky pieces of furniture and combine it down into one. This also meant we got rid of a few things...like some VHS tapes we hadn't touched in 2 years. But seriously...VHS? Gone. We saved about 15 VHS tapes but the rest were out the door. Literally, I hauled three bags down to the dumpster that day. It really looks fabulous! Once I get the big hutch cleaned off and arranged to look nice (and once we stop making these places catch-alls!!!!!) I think we'll be good to go on the apartment. It's FINALLY (after three years) starting to look like a home I'm happy to be in. Seriously! Run a vacuum at least once a week. Mop the kitchen floor once a month...if I can get into these habits...

And it's not too difficult to get into habits. Both of us have added to our routines. Every morning we do 10 minutes of yoga. EVERY morning. This has almost become a staple of our routine for two months now. And, I really can't imagine not doing it. Also, every Saturday, we haul our recycleable stuff to Grant Line Elementary and drop it off there. Helping the environment, baby! And since we're out and about, it's right on the way.

School is coming to a close. Sixteen days until my last class. Then it's preparation for final exams. Then I work commencement. Then right back into class. I'm killing myself with these summer classes. I really do think I'm burnt out...but I want to finish and I'm determined. I'm going to muddle through...even if it kills me. And (*spoken dramatically*) it might.

Been trying to get ahead on my history homework. With my research paper out of the way, I have some readings and then...done. Preparation for the big essay for the final exam which has me a bit nervous...but I think if I work hard, I'll do fine. I just want to prove to myself that I can get an A in a class where getting an A is due to selling your soul. But without all that selling of the soul stuff. *g*

Yesterday was tough. My boss had to have her yellow lab that she's had for 14 years put to sleep. She didn't come into work. She'll be here today. It's sad. :( Losing an animal is like losing a member of the family.

Snagged from everyone on the f-list:

( Friends will be friends... )

Oh...ladystarblade bought me two amazing things yesterday. A t-shirt that proclaims "I Wanna Be A Rock Star" (Yes...yes, I'm wearing that to the next Nickelback show, why do you ask?) and the latest NOW CD. Don't mock...it's Now That's What I Call 80s Music and it totally rocks!!

Oh...the 80s...how I miss them.

Now...back to work.

Well...I got signed up for ONE Summer I class. I want to take another, but can't attend the class. So, I e-mailed the professor and asked if an independent study was an option. We'll see what I get back.

I really, really didn't want to do summer classes, but I really, really want to get out of school by 2010. Seriously!

*sigh*

Going out to eat tonight. I can't wait because I've been craving Mexican food for weeks now! YUMMY!!

I wish it was time to go, because I hear it's beautiful out!

And I have to call my brother this week and get him to send me some money that he owes me. And has owed me now for YEARS!! So...it's time.

And I swiped this from ladystarblade:

I eat the feet...

Your Chocolate Easter Bunny Personality

You are logical, rational, and consistent. You take big decisions pretty seriously. You can be considered a bit aloof at times... But you're probably sitting back and analyzing things. Your emotions don't control you, and you are a very disciplined person. There's no way that you'd go out of control and eat too much chocolate!

It's another gray, rainy day here. It hasn't stopped raining since it started yesterday. The clouds are hanging low. The sky is gray. The air is just...bleek. The sky is weeping. And it doesn't look like it will let up anytime soon.

*sigh*

Rainy days. I usually love them. I don't know why these have had me in such a down mood.

But...it seems that most of campus is without power currently. The electric company was called out. And apparently a generator caused smoke to fill Hillside Hall, so the fire department was called out too.

This, in no way, affects me. Dammit.

Have I mentioned that I need a vacation?

And this...is swiped from kingofthewho and ladystarblade:

10%

Heh. There's a reason I don't want to be an astronaut. LOL!!

You know...I love the rain. I do.

But I don't like it when it rains all day. Either storm or don't rain at all. Because I hate the gloominess that comes with said weather. It's in everybody's moods and it's just really frickin' annoying!

Okay...

So, this morning we had our staff meeting and the big boss lady sprung another special event on us. Yeah...not in the budget. Yeah...not happy. Bad news for my boss is that I have my history final exam that night, so I can't help. Good for me. Bad for her. And then the big boss lady decided that she could always talk to my history teacher and I said..."Please don't make me take my final exam any sooner than I have to." So...yeah. We'll see how that shakes out. I will cry.

Aside from that, I finished up the project I was assigned yesterday. That was basically taking all these zip codes of "people who have asked for information on the school" and put in the distance from that zip code to the campus. I think the list was made up and here's why:

1. There were 7 zip codes that weren't even registered with the USPS.
2. Do you honestly think that people from California, Washington, Montana, Nebraska, etc. have ever even heard of this campus? Nope...me either.

So yeah...that was a fun use of my time.

Spring break is coming up. My boss thinks I should take a day off and work on my research paper. Good idea. But I don't know what all is going on this year. And I know I need to use of my holiday time or lose it...I just...yeah...not quite sure I want to waste 8 hours on that. As nice as that would be. UGH!!

I NEED A VACATION!! I CAN'T AFFORD ONE! BUT I NEED ONE! Somewhere far, far away from Southern Indiana. Just sayin'.

Aside from that...eh. I'm been pretty blah about everything else. And I think it's because I can't go places. Damn gas prices.

*sigh*

Back to work...

And I mean long. Work was incredibly taxing today. There was a special event for Housing on campus today and I had to help get that set up, run the Wii tournament, and act happy to be there.

Once that was over it was back up to the office to work on the rest of a mail merge. And I realized that tomorrow is my individual meeting with my boss. And I haven't done the big thing she wanted me to do in order to analyze my position. I've been a bit busy...and that's what I'll tell her.

Other than that, ladystarblade and I were trying out new drinks tonight.

We got a winner with the Alien Orgasm.

SO good!!

:)

And I'm worn out. Seriously!

Well...today was quite a busy day and much got accomplished.

The first thing that had to be done was laundry. Ugh. I hate laundry because it takes up about 2 hours of my day with the wash and then the dry and the treks to and from the laundry mat. But...it had to be done. It had been almost two weeks since it was done. FAR too long really as I only have a certain number of work shirts.

Then, it was over to the house to see if renquestor and only_playing could find anything that they needed now that they are set up in their new apartment. They took a few things and then headed off to her bridal shower.

After that, it was lunch with the family and then out to assist ladystarblade with clearing out her old car that will be junked later this month. Then, she began helping with shoveling the rest of the driveway. As she got near the end and was standing near a car that still had snow on it...

I attacked. SNOWBALL FIGHT. I haven't had one of those in years and it was SO much fun.

Now completely cold, we headed inside and warmed up while watching The Mask on TBS. Homeward bound after that...and then out for a bite to eat at Tumbleweed.

Back home, took a shower, finished up most of my homework. So, it's been a productive day.

Things I need to accomplish by Wednesday:

1. Begin research for paper on James Bond & the Cold War.
2. Finish paper on 2 philosophers and where they would work in today's media.
3. E-mail interview questions to marcgunn and andrewmckee.
4. Buy birthday present for ladystarblade.
5. Do up page of notes answering history professor's questions re: the reading for 3 points on quiz scores.
6. Pull interview with Siochain, decipher, and WRITE AN ARTICLE!
7. Update the Celtic Music Magazine...again.
8. Read chapter for Journalism Ethics homework.

On a side note...the yoga routine that we started on Saturday...OW. I am not that flexible. Ow. Ow.

The migraine of doom went away last night as I slept. Thank God!!

But this morning, my legs are feeling a little weak. Like, when I did my morning workout, they were trembling the entire time. And walking down the stairs, the same thing. Weird. Maybe they're still asleep. Who knows.

The good thing is...I'm feeling better.

Got into a bit of a scuffle over on Peter Cincotti's fan board. And had to nip that in the bud. I was so not liking the way the thread was going. And now am taking heat for locking it because it is remanicent of Peter's official board. The thing is...leaving the thread unlocked would have only caused more problems. I don't regret the choice at all because nothing good could have come of that.

Especially with me. Because I'm from the North and can really tear someone a new one when need be.

Put in my final word today after the instigator decided she'd play the martyr and told her if she wished to continue the conversation to PM me. I'm tired of her.

Ah well.

Best get to work!

Today was just strange...

I had weird dreams last night. Seriously.

Then, I didn't feel good at all this morning. And cooked breakfast which made us run late.

Work was just...MEH!

Went to class.

I did get to watch a cool documentary on Fox News in my Journalism Ethis class as we discussed media monopolies. VERY intersting.

Then I went to history. Turned in the midterm essay of doom and listened to a lecture about The Great Society.

Came home.

Showered.

Watched American Idol.

Finally logged online to much drama in the Peter Cincotti camp. after_lastnight...I honestly didn't want to call you, but I felt the faster this was taken care of the better...and since I didn't have the proper power to do it myself...

I do hope you went back to sleep, girl. ♥

And now I have a migraine starting. Oh...joy!

There is nothing quite like having those sleepless weekends. They wear me out, but this one was so worth it!

Friday night brought dinner out with ladystarblade, congoddess, her boyfriend, lost_judi, and Mom2. It was our Valentine's meal out. After that, it was grocery shopping and I worked on finishing up my homework before hitting the bed around midnight.

Woke up early the next morning. Ate breakfast and then got on the road by 9:00 to head out to Dayton, OH! Got there around lunch time and went and saw the Air Force Museum. ladystarblade had been before. But not me. It was very interesting. Lots of fun too. Ate lunch there and then headed out to Half-Price Books and found some vinyl but not much of anything else that caught our eyes.

Then...it was off to Dublin Pub in Dayton to meet up with the band, Siochain, who I was interviewing for the Celtic Music MP3 Magazine. I'd been trying to find a weekend to do it. The band is based out of Indianapolis, but it took a trip to Dayton to finally get it to work out. But, it was worth it. After eating again, this time Monster Grilled Cheese and fries...the drummer and bassist showed up. We sat and talked and they set up and then they ate while we waited on the rest of the band. They showed up a little later, set up, and ate. Then we got into the interview. Heh. SO. MUCH. FUN. I don't know how audible that is with the pub noise, but I think between ladystarblade and I we can figure it out.

The band loved us. They interacted with us before, but we all really hit it off. Between sets they came over to chat with us. I was sent to get water for Claudia at one point. And when we were freezing, they stopped by in between sets to keep us warm. It was really great. They are an amazing band. Very grounded. And SO DAMN GOOD!

They played at 9:00 and did three sets, ending at 1:00 a.m. This meant we got back on the road later than we planned and got home around 4:30 a.m. I was up around 10:30 and finished up my homework. ladystarblade emerged around 12:30 p.m. We did a few things around the house and then ended up eating breakfast/lunch with congoddess and her boyfriend while working on a project. Got some of the basics hammered out.

Then, we shopped a bit on Bardstown Road. That meant a lot of walking. More than we intended actually, but no biggie. Then back in the car for a run to Whole Foods. Back home. Got a bit more done. Am currently writing.

Back to work tomorrow. BLAH.

Busy...but worth it.

Heh. Actually that subject line is now making me giggle. I'm so immature. HAHAHAHA!!

Anyway...

Today has been insanely busy for me. The only reason I'm on here now is because...heh...I'm eating Eazy-Mac at my desk and therefore that means I get to quickly blog. But, yeah...nothing dull going on in the office today. I've been zooming from one project to another.

Whew.

I still need a vacation.

So...this year nothing bad really happened. That's an improvement. But, I still have no love for this holiday. To be honest, the whole holiday sucks for single people. And there really is no explanation for it. I don't mind that I'm single...I just hate being made to feel as though I'm less of a person for not having someone. And that's what this holiday does.

BUT...

on the flip side, I did get some really nice surprises today.

marcgunn sent me a nice text.

congoddess got me a singing pirate dog, chocolate, and a card.

I got a card from my parents, my mom2, Sandy, and someone in my Journalism Ethics class gave out cards to everyone in class.

And my boss got me a stuffed pig clutching a heart.

Today at school was also cookie and condom day. I kid you not!! :)

Anyway...there you have it.

And I feel so behind on everything. This has just been a rough time on trying to keep up with it all. I manage as best I can.

Not where it's particularly bad...but not good either.

It's just...strange.

Lots of stuff just going on. And I didn't get my snow day. And I had a really bad hair day this morning. I mean...BAD!! Had to wet down my hair and blow it dry all over again.

It sucked. No, really. It did.

But let's start with the good part.

I went to the dentist today. Finally. This time for a cleaning. And wow!! What a difference. Since it had been so long since I'd had a cleaning (think...7th or 8th grade), they did a few sets of X-rays. The ones where you have to bite around the film thingie and then the nifty 360 one that revolves around your head. I had had that done once before when I went to get my wisdom teeth pulled. So, teeth were cleaned. My dentist told me not very many people had teeth like mine. Apparently, they're rather sturdy. No cavities. Good news there.

Back to work.

The Student Alumni Association (SAA) was running a drive for a give away for a free class ring. Unfortunately, whenever SAA is running an event, it means none of the students show up and my boss and I have to work it. I was down there from 11:00 - 3:30. Yeah. It was horrible. I got my homework done in that time, but it was insane. I was sitting on a hard bench all day. It was noisy. Just BLAH!!

My ass hurt after that and I really didn't want to sit down. So, then I went upstairs and my boss took over. And two SAA guys showed up at 4:00 to work the table. UGH!!! NOT HAPPY!

So it put me in a mood because all my work ended up having to sit the entire day since I was out of the office for most of it.

BLAH!!

It's gotta be the weather. Because I've not been happy lately. Maybe it's stress. I don't know. I just want to be able to laugh again. To really really laugh again without feeling like I'm forcing it or trying to be happy for the sake of others.

Things have been tough recently. My job was restructured, but you all lived through that drama...so I'm not going to rehash it now. What it did was put a lot of new people in charge. People who look down on me, who don't even want to converse with me...and it really makes dragging my butt to work difficult at times. I used to love that job. I used to really enjoy what I did there. Now, I don't. I don't like being there, feeling as though my every move is being monitored. I hate feeling like I have to watch every step. I. Just. Hate. It.

School has been...ugh. There are no words. I've never worked so hard in my life but felt like I haven't accomplished a damn thing. I get assigned my readings. I read them. I don't remember what I read. I read them again. I sort of remember...then I don't.

Tonight's quiz was a disaster. I'm not kidding. He asked questions like, "What was the name of the judge who delivered the final judgment in the Rosenberg case." I blanked. Not just on that question either. Despite having read the damn thing twice, I completely blanked. I think my teacher noticed my distress, but he doesn't care. I think he lives to make lives difficult for people. So...we get assigned two more chapters to read over the weekend. And another quiz is happening on Tuesday. On top of that, I have a paper to write for my Journalism Ethics class and if I don't get writing on my papers for Newspaper Reporting, I'm going to be in deep shit. On top of that, I have a 10-15 page research paper for my History class that I need to get started on or else I'll never have it done on time. And it's just one thing after another and I'm stressed out to the max.

And a lot of this has contributed to the funk I've been in. People get really excited about things. Stuff they bought. Things they're doing. And I can't really say anything because I'm having to pinch pennies because I have important things coming up that I MUST have money for. But...I'm glad for them. I am. It does make me happy. I just...wish I had the same sort of luxury.

I hate that I'm always bitching about the same nonsense.

Perhaps, also, it's that I'm not sleeping well again. I wake up at least 3 times every night. Like clockwork. And maybe that's the stress too, but it's starting to show. I looked in the mirror today and I looked tired. I looked stressed.

I want to play my piano...but I don't seem to have the time these days. I want to travel...but I don't have the money. I want to buy things I don't need but I want...but again...I don't have the money. And I have to keep in mind my upcoming bills...JC Penney...Victoria's Secret...my car payment. Oh...and tuition will come around when I look into some summer classes. It's like I can never quite get ahead.

Ah well.

Such. Is. Life.